Cancer Reflection

I want to look at my reflection in the mirror
and realize
WOW
after all those hurts,
after all those procedures,
after all of the radiation,
after the surgery
and waiting
and waiting,
after all of those trials,
I really made it through.
I want to say
“I DID IT.
I REALLY DID IT.
I survived that which kills so many”
I want to lift my head
in the direction upwards toward the sky,
with my eyes gently closed
and feel the warmth
of that midday hot summer sunlight
shine down on my face
free of cancer.
I want it to be gone!
I want to be free
free of the worry
and fear
of my mortality.